Oh How Time FLYS by...part 2

Jazmyne Rose



Can't believe she is 1 already




She LOVES being in the spotlight

 Not only am I a Mother to a 3 year old but also a 1 year old! My baby is turning 1 (tomorrow) and it seems so unreal to me! Jazmyne Rose sometimes there are no words to describe my love for this little girl but oh how she melts my heart. I was always afraid of How can I love 2 kids equally? Well it hasn't even occurred since the moment I heard "she's perfect". I had the pleasure of being with my Mom as I had my second baby, and as she put her hand on my cheek and said oh Brooke she's beautiful just perfect with tears rolling down her face I already LOVED my daughter. Jazmyne was the missing link in my heart and Quincy and I's family. Once I saw her the love grew more intense and even more so when I first got to hold her so close and tight. She nestled right into my neck and at that moment I knew that loving 2 kids was going to be amazing!!! As soon as big brother arrived to check on Momma (left while he was sleeping) and see baby sister my heart let out a big cry. Oh the Joy watching him look at her for the longest time and then holding him in my arms. There was no sweeter moment then having both my babies with me! I have loved watching Jazmyne grow up into a sassy, sweet, loveable, funny, little girl. She has quite the personality and at times gets pretty fiesty but I wouldn't change it for anything. She is her Mothers Daughter :)

Oh How Time FLYS by....

I can't believe that Im the Mother to a 3 year old already...I can still remember the second this sweet baby boy was born. I didn't know how much I could love someone until I became a MOM. That day was the best day of my life, my heart was instantly his the instant the Dr placed him in my arms. Quincy changed my life in so many ways and Im forever grateful God choose me to be his Mother. Q has changed so much over the last 3 years from sweet, shy boy, who didn't talk much to a vibrant, outgoing, very talkative big boy! His love for the farm has continued to grow more and more everyday. Over the last year Quincy inherited his first heifer from his Uncle Dave...black & white cow who Q named OREO :). He has to check her everyday or atleast make sure Papa feeds her cake & pellets. It makes me happy that Quincy enjoys the farm (simple) life and that his only concern right now is if he gets to go feed cows, ride horses, farm, build fence or just simply be with Papa & Uncle Derek!!! Those 2 guys have been a lifesaver to this Momma on many accounts and Im blessed that my son has them to look up to! Papa recently found some lil spurs for Quincy and they haven't been OFF his boots since haha (Notice them in the picture below). I can't wait to see the young man my sweet boy grows up to be! Love ya Quincy Ray 6-27-2008



My big 3 year old!



Check out this cowboy's SPURS!

He is just growing up to fast but Im lovin every second!

Homecoming Parade!

Poco and Quincy!

This year I put my kids in the SCHS Homecoming Parade 2011! Quincy wanted to ride Poco so Uncle Derek got Poco to town, they washed him, brushed his tail and mane, and painted him! Quincy was so excited to be able to ride Poco for awhile and he ended up winning 1st Place in the Animal category.

SCHS Tutu!

BFF's Jazmyne and Bretlynn!

These 2 CUTE girls were the Future Homecoming Queens of 2028! They were so adorable in the wagon, getting all sticky with their suckers and in the matching outfits! They got 3rd Place in the People Category!

Jaymi and I have already started thinking about next years parade! So proud of our babies and truly BLESSED!

God Gave Me You

2010 started out pretty rough for me as I made the biggest decision in my life. I finally choose to listen to my head and walked away from a relatioship that was breaking my heart.I had been with my first real love for 3 years and we were about to have our second child. Our relationship started out with tough times as we got pregnant with Quincy only 7 months after we met, we hardly knew each other, neither of us had finished school and we weren't MARRIED. After that we had our ups and downs, lived apart for the whole pregnancy except the last month when he finally moved back here to be with us. Things just never got good but I tried cause as a little girl growing up I always dreamed of that FAMILY, marriage & kids. Lets fast forward almost 2 years when I found out I was pregnant with Jazmyne I cried and cried. I was not ready to add another child to the situation cause I wasn't sure where we were going in our relationship.
The day I choose to be happy and give my kids the best life I could was so hard and I spent it crying and Praying to God that I was doing the right thing. I left my relationship and father of my kids when I was 2 months pregnant with Jazmyne. It was the hardest day of my life and still is at times. I gave him my whole heart and it hurts that it wasn't enough but Im stronger today for doing what I did. The process was hard, sad, painful and good at the same time! The kids and I have been happy and enjoying life to the fullest. We had some hard adjustments that followed my decision but with the support and Prayers from all our loved ones we have made it through together!! God blessed me with my 2 beautiful kids Quincy & Jazmyne and everything I do in life no matter how easy or hard it is I do it for THEM! The song that follows is just one of many that has been a source of strength for my heart to keep moving on.

God Gave Me You:
I’ve been a walking heartache
I’ve made a mess of me
The person that I’ve been lately
Ain’t who I wanna be

But you stay here right beside me
And watch as the storm blows through
And I need you

Cause God gave me you for the ups and downs
God gave me you for the days of doubt
And for when I think I lost my way
There are no words here left to say, it’s true
God gave me you
Gave me you

There’s more here than what we’re seeing
A divine conspiracy
That you, an angel lovely
Could somehow fall for me
You’ll always be love’s great martyr
And I’ll be the flattered fool
And I need you

God gave me you for the ups and downs
God gave me you for the days of doubt
And for when I think I lost my way
There are no words here left to say, it’s true
God gave me you

On my own I’m only
Half of what I could be
I can’t do without you
We are stitched together
And what love has tethered
I pray we never undo

Cause God gave me you for the ups and downs
God gave me you for the days of doubt
God gave me you for the ups and downs
God gave me you for the days of doubt
And for when I think I lost my way
There are no words here left to say, it’s true
God gave me you, gave me you.
He gave me you.

Cowboy & Cowgirl

Quincy, Jazmyne and Poco. This horse is the most amazing one I have been around no wonder Quincy loves him. Poco is such a great horse for my babies to be around. He won't move an inch when Quincy or Jazmyne are around him (pic to follow). Quincy wakes up talking about Poco and goes to sleep talking about Poco, he just wants to know that he is okay all the time. I love that Quincy has a passion for the farm life, cause I sure miss it at times. I loved riding horses with my Dad and Brother, feeding the cows, helping tag them...all those things are what my son now loves to do. I treasure that he is able to do it with 2 of the best GUYS in his life, Papa & Uncle Derek!! I wonder if Jazmyne will have the same passion or not? She wasn't too sure of Poco but it was the first time she was up close to him. It's nice that it doesn't take expensive things, toys, electronics or etc to make my kids happy!!

Q,J & Poco!!!



Papa, Quincy, Jazmyne & Poco



Papa & Quincy loading up Poco!

Worth It!

Its been awhile since I have blogged, but I am going to try to keep up with it cause time is going so fast and I want to be able to look back on the SPECIAL memories. This year has been a rollercoaster ride for me; going through custody battle, accepting being a SINGLE Mom, Quincy being diagnosed with Petit Mal Epilepsy, Jazmyne being a carrier of sickle cell. These are the things that make me ask Why Me God? Why God does my son have to take seizure medicine? Why God is my daughter a carrier for sickle cell? Why God?

Sometimes I want to cry when Q asks, Why do I have to take yucky medicine? Oh sweet sweet boy of mine because this yucky medicine makes you better. It all started last year November 2010, life was crazy with a 2 1/2 year old and 1 month old. I had been noticing something going on with Quincy at times but didn't think much of it in the beginning. Then Dad came to me after having Quincy one day and said have you noticed this...Quincy would be eating, talking, playing, just doing whatever and freeze for about 20-30 seconds all while being noresponsive and then pick right back up with what he was doing. I said yes I have but just thought he was acting out cause attention wasn't only on him. Dad and I talked about it for awhile and I decided that when Jazmyne went for her checkup I would talk to Dr. Cannata about it. This is where I felt like a BAD Mom. I told Dr. Cannata what had been going on and the symptons Quincy was showing, as I heard the words he said to me my HEART sank to my stomach. Lets get him in as soon as possible for an EEG, Im thinking Petit Mal Epilepsy. Tears streaming down my face I say ok. Two weeks later I take my baby boy for his EEG and oh how my heart was aching as he laid on the table sleeping while they tested him, he had 2 seizures during it and the next day I got the phone call I was hoping would say he is fine. But instead I heard, Quincy has what we call Petit Mal Epilepsy, absence seizures but he does need to be medicated for them. Why God? I had mixed emotions only because Im glad we knew what was wrong but I was hoping nothing would have been wrong. Quincy has done so good about taking his medicine which makes me so proud. He goes every 3 months to Dr. Welch to check his blood levels, kidneys, and depakote levels. Everything has always checked out great and now its been almost 1 year since we found out and he hasn't had a seizure! He will have another EEG in November to check his brain for firing signals. I Pray that they have good news for us, but I know if they don't that God will continue to keep my son safe & healthy! God will forever love Quincy!



Jazmyne Rose oh my heart is complete with this little girl. I sometimes find myself Praying for time to stand still so I can be able to cherish the time she is little a bit longer.With Quincy I didn't realize how fast time went and how he grew up so quick. Time with Jazmyne has flown by, I have loved every second of it but sad that my BABY is quickly turning into a BIG girl! Jazmyne is a GIRL for sure...she LOVES being told how cute she is, she has quite the attitude when she wants, and she knows what to do to get her WAY! Jaz is now almost 11 months old, walking, talking, EATING (she loves to eat)...she is the perfect fit to Quincy and I! Jazmyne has grown so fast, she is going to be TALL Im thinking! She has the best personality for the most part but oh man can she throw a fit, haha. Must be a girl thing cause I don't remember Quincy ever throwing fits maybe I just tuned his out I don't know. Papa is in trouble because not only does Quincy love him and wanna go with him but now Jaz does too. She always scolds him when he tries leaving and doesn't take her...of course he loves that so he will come back and stay longer or take her for awhile! Quincy isn't to keen on Jazmyne going to the farm like he does, he isnt ready to share the cows, horses, dogs, 4wheeler or his PAPA!!! They also love their Gma Terri why oh because she BUYS them anything they want haha! No thats not the only reason haha, she is a great grandma to my babies! She loves spending time with them as do they with her! Jazmyne will be 1 soon and it makes me sad that it could possibly be my LAST 1st birthday. But oh so HAPPY because I know their are great times to be had as she grows up into a sweet little girl and young lady.

God has blessed me with a beautiful Son & Daughter!

Love’s not a feeling
Love’s not convenient
But I know love will change your life
Love takes sacrifice
Love cuts like a knife
Sometimes love will make you cry
Love’s not easy
But it’s worth it

Love is a hunger
But love won’t leave you empty
See it’s the language of the heart
Love can steal your pride
But love won’t let you hide
It takes everything you’ve got
Love’s not easy
But it’s worth it